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I’m Getting Help

I’m Getting Help

It feels like it was only yesterday since I walked into the reception at uni on the verge of tears. It was the day of my first personal tutor meeting and I had told myself I wouldn’t cry. I wouldn’t unload everything on my personal tutor. All it took was for him to ask if I was ok and quite frankly I lost it. The night before I had had the meltdown to end all meltdowns and I finally opened…

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Alcohol and my Mental Health

Alcohol and my Mental Health

These two are not best buddies. In fact, it is safe to say they are the most uncomfortable pairing known to man. Recently every time I have drunk I have either had a full-blown panic attack or a not so nice wobble. Number one this is really not fair on the people I am with but secondly, these episodes are incredibly exhausting and take me a good few days to recover from. A Decision Because of all of this I…

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How I Learnt to Love Myself

How I Learnt to Love Myself

For as long as I can remember I haven’t been confident in the way I look. I never thought I looked good in what I wore and quite simply I just felt awkward. As a child, I dressed in what looked like boys clothes; board shorts and garish t-shirts. As I grew up my fashion sense developed into baggy hoodies and skinny jeans. As the hoodies got baggier my weight increased and then I quite simply hid. I hid behind…

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Closing That Door

Closing That Door

The other day I had a dream. I was sat in the refectory and my sister came and sat down next to me. I woke up before we could talk but ever since I have had this niggling feeling in the back of my mind. If you know me or if you have been reading my blog for a while you will know a relationship with my sister is something that doesn’t exist. Am I sad about this? Usually, I…

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University – a step too ambitious?

University – a step too ambitious?

Since University is now less than a month away my mind has been going into overdrive wondering if going back to school is something I can really do. Now before I go any further I just want to say this not me saying I want to drop out or anything like that. This is just me documenting my current worries and feelings. I’ve mentioned this many times before I do have anxiety and this often causes me to over think…

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I Want To Go Home

I Want To Go Home

So recently I have been having panic attacks just as I am settling down to sleep, after I have said goodnight to my best friend and when I am most relaxed. These panic attacks were coming out of the blue, in fact, I’ve been feeling pretty happy recently, I’ve been organised and motivated so there was no reason for these attacks to be happening right? But last night (24/1/18) during my panic attack all I could think was ‘I just want…

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Be Your Inner Wolf

Be Your Inner Wolf

You might remember that a month or so ago I launched a t-shirt campaign using mercht that quite simply was not a success. I myself didn’t even bother ordering something! But the good news is that I have relaunched it as such and this time I am determined for it to be a success. This time around I have created a range of five sweatshirts with a slightly different design. I listened to my friends and taken their comments on board. instead of…

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A Tattoo and A T-Shirt Campaign

A Tattoo and A T-Shirt Campaign

Earlier this year I got my very first tattoo! I have always said I would only get a tattoo if it had some sort of reason behind it. I didn’t want to end up regretting what I got or asking myself what I was thinking? So here it is! Turns out it is harder to take a picture of your own arm with a DSLR camera! I decided to go with a wolf, they are beautiful yet strong. Something I…

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Hey, its ok!!

Hey, its ok!!

Its ok to say no to people or turn down invites It’s ok to want to spend time alone It’s ok to eat that second slice of cake, or third..or fourth!! It’s ok to have a brew and biscuits for tea It’s ok to triple text that idiot you’re hung up on, even if he hasn’t text back yet It’s ok to snort when you laugh It’s ok to make mistakes, we are all human and every mistake is a…

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Anxiety Talks|Notebooks and Journals

Anxiety Talks|Notebooks and Journals

Hello, my lovelies!! Now I know I only posted a blog yesterday but this is gonna be a regular thing! I’m getting on this blogging stuff!! So let’s get down to it. So the biggest way I filter all of my thoughts are writing. Writing in my journal is the only way I have been able to get through this past month. When I am really struggling with a certain something (don’t really want to go into it right now)…

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