So I’m not sure if I have told you this yet but I’m going to uni in September! Ok, I’m just kidding I know I have told you a million times over but it is, unfortunately, something you will have to continue reading! Just like with every situation in life I feel a whole mix of emotions but the biggest or more prominent emotion shall we say, would have to be fear! Because of that, I thought I would share these fears with you and maybe this can be some sort of therapy me and a bit of a help for anyone else feeling these same fears!
Fear of going back into education
Now this one may be a bit more specific to me but I am terrified of going back into education! I finished my A-levels in 2014…it is now 2018. four years is a hell of a long time! I haven’t done coursework or exams for four years, nor have so much as sat in a classroom and participated in an actual class! I’m terrified that I won’t be able to keep up or deal with the stress of exams or coursework. I guess deep down the real fear is that I am a failure on an academic level.
Fear that I won’t like the people I live with
For my first year, I will be living in halls of residence. This means living with around ten other people most of whom will be about four years younger than me! I know from living in house shares that if you don’t get on with your housemates it can make for an uncomfortable life. So can you imagine living with ten people you don’t get on with! Yes, I know it is unlikely that I will not get along with all of my flatmates but try telling my anxiety that!!!
Fear that I will run out of money
Unlike most students, I am fully dependent on myself and myself only! This means that if I run out of money I am basically fucked! This means I will have to get a job as soon as I get to Cheltenham along with doing temp work throughout the year. I will also have to support myself through the summer as I won’t have a ‘home’ to go back to. Instead, I will be headed to either a student house that will let me move in at the start of the summer or into a private house share. I m terrified of not being able to earn money throughout the year that will aid me in supporting myself over the summer thus making me homeless!
So there we have it! My university fears! Are any of you feeling the same way? Or do you have any advice in regards to how I am currently feeling? Please let me know in the comments!